Recently I have been a little impatient with where I am at. I’m having trouble being content with what seems to be my pretty stagnant life. I want to move out of our compact studio, I want to know where my career is headed, I desire with my whole heart to live in the woods, I want to start a family; my head and heart are just full of so many hopes, dreams and ideas!…. I have a very active imagination that gets caught up in the land of day dreams. 

Yesterday morning, as i was just pouring all these hopes to the Lord, I started to feel so selfish for asking God to guide me in my own dreams. I never want to trust that what I have planned is better than what the Lord has planned for me, for my heart knows that, “To Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within us, to Him be glory” Ephesians 3:20. As I moved on to my daily devotional, Jesus Calling, by Sarrah Young, I was quite surprised by what it had to say!

    “I am working on your behalf. Bring Me all your concerns, including your dreams. Talk with Me about everything, letting the Light of My Presence shine on your hopes and plans. Spend time allowing My Light to infuse your dreams with life gradually transforming them into reality This is a very practical way of collaborating with Me. I, the Creator of the universe, have deigned to co-with you. Do not try to hurry this process. If you want to work with Me, you have to accept My time frame. Hurry is not in My nature. Abraham and Sarah had to wait many years for the fulfillment of My promise, a son. How their long wait intensified their enjoyment of this child! Faith is the assurance of things hoped for, perceiving as real fact what is not revealed to the senses. ” (Young, pg 362)

(If you didn’t know , this devotional is written in the perspective of Jesus talking to you personally) It’s so crazy how my God chooses to speak to me in direct response to my prayers!It always blows my mind and gives me butterflies! It made me realize that it is not bad to have dreams and ideas and hopes of my own, but I am privileged and blessed to bring all these things to the Lord who will work out all for my good. Man, that is just so cool…

So as i will continue to be praying  that God will give me a patient heart, while pouring all my hopes and dreams to Him of moving out of this studio and into a real house in the woods, my aspirations of becoming a candle maker, working with old people, having babies, traveling around the world serving the Lord and all these other things that my heart dreams up! I trust  Him and His timing for it all.